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Awkward
Transitions.
·
Learning
to drive a car.
·
A
friendship that turns into a first date.
·
Matching
clothes with your sister(s).
·
High
School…all of it.
·
Puberty.
·
Moving
across the globe.
·
Living.
Working. Breathing. Eating. With the same people that are not only your
coworkers but also your best friends and your siblings in Christ.
·
Saying
goodbye to long term friends.
All of
these things and more are under the simple phrase of “awkward transitions”, because
that is what life is made up of. Many little awkward transitions.
The
dictionary definition of transition is: a passage from one stage, state, subject,
or place from another.
Coming to
a place in life. Where you will have to go through a passage or a change in
scenery it is bound to happen to all of us at some point.
This week
I have shared a little bit of my testimony with everyone about how I made my
way back to Uganda and how it was completely God ordained. I remember getting
back to the states after I came home from 6 months in Uganda in 2013. (September
2013- February 2014). I was ready to get going on University and had a deferred
acceptance to my dream school. I was getting back into a routine at home and
meeting up with friends and family for coffee. Most of the time it ended up
being the Coffee Oasis in Port Orchard. I got a chai tea latte and BLT on
sourdough every time I went. I just didn’t feel settled in my spirit and just
attributed it to my experiences in Uganda. It was more. So much more. I just didn’t
know it yet. One rainy Port Orchard morning I got a text from my sister, Megan-
she wanted to get together for coffee of course at CO. She told me how I had
not been myself lately and she really encouraged that I consider returning to
Uganda. I hadn’t even considered it previously. I was going to go to school immediately.
I was ready and prepared to get going on working towards the career path that I
had chosen. Key word…I. I secretly began
praying about it, that God would reveal what HE wanted for my life and that he
would make it obvious…he didn’t. I had my parents and a few of my biggest
encouragers praying for this decision. I came to an awkward transition at this
time, a fork in the road. I felt like God was leading me in three different
directions which is so cool because 3 is such a biblical number between the
trinity, raising on the third day, and
peter denying Christ and many other times. a) I could stay at home and go to community
college and be involved in student ministry with Jr. High age. I was teaching a
5th and 6th grade Sunday school class and God was
teaching me so much through my kiddos in that class, b) I could grab that
deferred acceptance, move to Phoenix and start the college life or c) I could
go back to Uganda and continue to serve and give selflessly. All three are
good. All three can be used to glorify God. I had peace knowing that He COULD
use me but I just wanted a sign. That’s when I really felt God giving me a
nudge in the right direction….
·
I
was teaching about free will to my Sunday School class and I got an idea or the
Lord really gave it to me I should say. (I am pretty sure everyone in Africa
knows me by this analogy) It isn’t a perfect analogy, but I am a visual
learner- so it really brings things into a good perspective. Anyway, I brought
a real life bird into the classroom and it was in a cage. I asked the kids if
this bird had free will, at first they all said no because it was stuck in a
cage. Then I challenged them with asking them if the bird could get food? Sit on
a choice of two different perches? Play with the toys in the cage? Use the
bathroom? All the answers to these questions were ‘YES’. This was a great
example of the free will that God gives us. Of course He already knows how we
are going to react and what decision we are going to make. But I boldly believe
that God gives us a choice. The cage is representative of God’s grace and
protection. He protects us from the things we cannot see and that are out of
our line of site. The unknown.
When I
finally made the decision to come back to Africa, there was no fanfare or a
100% sign of confirmation right away. The Lord definitely honored my decision
through the support of my friends and home church. He allowed people and
encouragements into my life to let me know and assure me that He was going to
use me and in a BIG way. He has taught me so much through my friendships here
and just the importance of boundaries and learning to say ‘No’ to things that
may be overwhelming at times. He has allowed some of those same young adults
from my Sunday School class to reach out to me and tell me how excited they are
to be following God’s will. After coming here and seeing what God is doing in
my life I DON’T WANT YOU TO COME TO AFRICA. Okay, well I guess that is not true
because I would be thrilled if you came to see me and seeing God’s ministry
here. But truly all I want for the young people, all I want to see in this next
generation… I want them to make bold decisions that are God ordained. Many
parents might not agree with this next statement, but I am going to say it anyway.
Maybe school is not for you. You don’t have to do what everyone else does
because society says that is what comes next. If it is God’s will for you to go
then go. My biggest challenge to you is: are you in God’s will for your life? Are your decisions
based off of what God wants for you? Are you leading by example in every area
of your life? Are you making BOLD decisions? Are you in the middle of an
awkward transition? Sometimes the Lord speaks loudest through those times and
sometimes he remains silent.
As time
is slipping through my fingers and as my two year commitment continues to
shorten, I am beginning to think of where will God send me next? What is His
purpose and His plan? And again I feel like 3 different options have come up. I
am not going to share them with you quite yet because I am still in deliberation
with the Lord and in persistent prayer about what His will is.
Will you
commit to praying for me? Pray that the Lord will make Himself known in all of
the awkward transitions and that I would be willing to go where He leads. Pray
that satan will not be able to steal my joy and that I will choose joy every day
not because I have to, but because I am genuinely happy/ content with where the
Lord has brought me.
By the
way thank you to those of you who have participated in the CRCC Awana penny
war. I am so blessed and remember when I was a kid and I would get so
competitive and try to beat the boys by bringing in a lot of pennies from and
old water jug that my dad kept hidden in the closet. I never could have
imagined that I would be on the other end of that penny and being one of the
people receiving this huge blessing. It just made me start to think that one of
the young children in that bible club could grow up to be and adult that gets to receive such
a blessing because they remembered what God has done for them and they will be
living a life according to God’s purposes. Never underestimate the power of
God. I am a bit partial towards Awana as it was on my way there that I received
Christ when I was a kid.